And so my healing begins
So my friends tell me about this site where I can blog about my feelings, events or simple thoughts. So I reluctantly sign up and wrote my first blog. I have to say it is kind of theraputic. I am horrible at writting none the less spelling. But I decided, hey, what the hell, why not. So here I am spilling away my guts to the internet as it was a long lost friend I haven’t seen in a while. I have so many thoughts in my head, yet I cannot type fast enough to release them all. But Im trying my best. Im sure that after a while I will eventualy become better at this, and not only be able to release some steam, but perhaps be a written lesson for someone out there. And if not, then this will at least be a collection of my rambling thoughts.
So I met this this girl a few weeks back while I was hanging with my friends. So I only gave her my card, cuz I also do massage therapy and she said she was interrested in one, anywho. I heard from my friends that this girl had mentioned(while I had excused myself to the ladies room) to them that she was digging me. Not really sure what that means. So anyway, I tried a few times to call her and set up some time to hang out. Without being totally high school and saying, something like, Oooh my friends said you like me or some s***t like that. But I have not really felt this vibe. She tells me she will call me, but has not. So Im going to take that as maybe she was just tripping, or my friends were. So then I think to myself, s***t , what the hell am I doing, why do I purposely want to even go there with someone. I obviously have learned nothing of “knock it the fu** off you dumb s***t! So I called her yesterday,she said she would call me today but didn’t. I told her about me feeling like she was giving me the brush off and I understood. But Then she said that was not it, she was just busy and she really liked to hear my voice. So now Im confused. Do I just walk away or stick around. I trully know I really am in no state to pursue a relationship AT ALL, but I wouldn’t deny some company, you know.
